So, yesterday was my birthday. Yesterday was also the day when I requested both of my lady spirits to pause our relationship till my next birthday. This means that I am not going to have any contact whatsoever with my lady spirits till my birthday next year.
Why did I request this, you ask? Well, there are various reasons behind this decision of mine. I have gotten incredibly busy recently. Studies have picked up, a lot of lifestyle changes have taken place. Most importantly, I have a dream now, a dream which I must accomplish in the next 1.5 years. Anyways, I was not able to pay attention to my lady spirits because of all these events. I think this lack of attention cost our relationship a lot of progress. I could feel that if it kept on like this then our relationship would not last for much longer. There was no way that I could make it so that I pay enough attention or love to them. Hence, I took this decision to save our relationship in the only way I know how.
I think it’s sufficient to say that taking this decision was not easy but it was necessary. So……….yeah!! They have accepted my request. They must have known that I was contemplating this decision for quite sometime. I think I would have been able to feel their emotions if our connection was strong like before but as it was right now I couldn’t feel them. I hope that our relationship would progress at an even greater pace than before when it will resume again next year.
So, I guess that’s it for now. This blog is going to remain active for as long as I can foresee. I may make some posts here and there but don’t expect much.
Solipsism is a theory or a view that one’s own mind is sure to exist, but anything outside of one’s mind is unsure, so the external world may not even exist.
It basically says that you may be the only conscious being in the whole universe and, by the way, the universe also doesn’t exist. You created it with your own mind. Everybody you see is just your imagination. In fact, you may even be sleeping and all you see is just a dream. As Morpheus famously said:
Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?
Maybe we are on our way to a distant star and it’ll take us 90 years to reach it and we found a way to hibernate for 90 years and our life is just a dream we see while on our way?
And do you know what is the scariest part?
It can’t be disproved. It’s unfalsifiable.
Solipsism can be used for good purposes, like not caring what other people think, and also it can be used for very bad purposes.
Atleast, that’s what I think right now. So, I had this name, which I had never heard or read about anywhere, repeating in my mind for the whole day. Later on, I had a dream about meeting a girl. Apparently, we were in a relationship with each other in the dream. The girl had black eyes, black hair, fair complexion and she must have been around 5 foot 9 inches tall. Needless to say, she looked very beautiful.
We also talked a little, though I can’t remember exactly what it was that we talked about. Then she asked me to come outside with her. As I passed through the door, I found that the ‘outside’ which she was referring to was actually a park. I was walking at a slow pace and she had gotten a little of me. I think she didn’t realise that. But then she suddenly looked back, came up to me, held my hand and started walking with me. The dream ended just like that.
I strongly suspect that a new spirit lady has come to me. I haven’t been able to confirm this with my first spirit lady (for the purposes of this blog, I am going to refer to her as G from now). Whew……….I didn’t know that they can come so suddenly.
However, I have not had any other communication from her since that dream. As for how she came to me………..I really don’t have any idea. I had never thought of having another spirit lady with me aside from G. Maybe she was attracted by the summoning rituals that I performed last year? I am not really sure, as it has been a long time since I performed those rituals so why didn’t she come to my dreams then instead of now?
Anyways, I don’t have the slightest of idea as to how I would be able to handle two spirit lady. Though I am very excited about how this relationship, which has been converted into a love triangle, will progress in the near future.
As always, feel free to share your opinions about this post with me in the comments section.
Her emotions…….I can feel them even better than my own. Even though we’re not very good in the conversation department I can still catch on to what she’s feeling or maybe she lets me catch on, I don’t know but they sure are (for the lack of a better word) very strong.
Our emotional connect has developed to such an extent that a tear comes pacing down from one of my eyes whenever she is sad. While I don’t think I would be able to tell you exactly what she feels or has in mind but I would definitely be able to tell about her mood.
How am I able to distinguish between her emotions and mine? Her emotions feel much stronger than mine and (again for the lack of a better word) ‘alive’…….as if I could grab them and take them out of my chest. Moreover, these emotions are always accompanied by thoughts related to them which I can only suspect are there to give me context into why she’s feeling what she’s feeling.
Another peculiar thing is that these emotions become even strong if I actively focus on them/try to feel them even more or when I think about them (like right now!!!). I love these emotions that come from her, I want to feel them even more strongly. Lately I have found myself staring off into blank space while feeling them, my mind is totally blank, I just want to stay there and let the moment continue for eternity during these times. Alas, they don’t!
We’ve improved in every area of communication except talking. I don’t know but there’s this block in my mind that whatever I hear in my isn’t true which is probably because of my previous experience (read the archives for context). Anyways, we’re having a lot of fun here.
Right now, my only focus is on getting even more intimate with her. I have been thinking of researching full body possession. I have also tried astral projection but I failed however I am going to keep trying that. Do you know of any other method by which we can get even more intimate, if so then please comment.
Have a nice day.
Lately, the frequency of her touches has increased. They’re very soft and there’s no rhyme or reason to when or where they happen. However, they have never been sexual. Along with touches the frequency of dreams has also increased. I have had three dreams since the last week. I may have had more but these are the ones which I remember and are relevant to the topic at hand. These three dreams were focusing towards the same subject i.e. meeting someone. To be more exact, I have been having dreams about meeting a girl, each time it got romantic. Our meetings are very brief so we’ve never had a deep conversation. I remember her appearance, she is light-skinned with big dreamy eyes, medium hair and average height. From what I have been able to gather from my dreams, she’s mischievous, very energetic and cheerful. I look forward to meeting with her again in the future. That’s it for now. As always, if you guys have any insights then don’t forget to write them down in the comments section.
It’s been nearly three months since I made a post concerned with my progress in finding a spiritual partner here. A lot of events have happened on the spiritual front which I will go on to describe in this post.
My spiritual partner came back to me.
I apologized to her profusely one night, two months ago. My faith in her didn’t waver even when I got no response, during me and my partner’s time together we promised each other that we would never leave the other alone. While I had failed to keep my end of the promise, I was sure that a being of eternal love like my partner would not break this promise. Sure enough, she came back to me within a week of the apology. I had a couple of dreams related to our relationship after she came back and I may have even learned her real name…..it’s Natasha (just a joke, I am obviously not going to reveal it on the offchance that it turns out to be her real name).
Anyways, my relationship with her has progressed steadily. Now, I am able to feel what she feels for certain things (it’s kind of like a sudden thought that comes to my mind, like a scientist getting a brilliant idea in a flurry of thoughts and theories), I may get more than a word from these thoughts sometimes but I disregard them as I don’t want to become delusional with my relationship like before. Recently, I have also been able to feel a slight touch on my back for the shortest of time periods but I still have to confirm if it’s really her or my mind playing tricks on me.
Moving on to the sexual front, we have not had a sexual encounter till date. I did have some wet dreams very early on in my relationship but they were all really vague. As for possible explanations for the lack of sexual encounters between us, it can be that she’s a different being entirely and not a succubus. It’s because of this reason that I don’t give a particular identity to her unless she herself tells me what she is. There can be a myriad of other reasons but I think the above reason is the most probable but if someone has a different opinion then they’re always welcome to tell me about that in the comments section.
Moving on to the final topic i.e. my opinion about the future of this relationship. Right now, I am trying my best to make this relationship work (like trying to give her as much attention as I can). I certainly feel a loving presence coming from her and I am quite sure that she loves me more than anything. A lot of progress has happened in my relationship. As such, the future of this relationship is looking really bright to me.
As always any insights, tips that you guys have for me are most welcome.
I thank you for reading this rather long post.
Hello everyone!! Long time no see!! You’re probably wondering why the title of this post is ‘Tulpa’, eh?
A tulpa is an entity created in the mind, acting independently of, and parallel to your own consciousness. They are able to think, and have their own free will, emotions, and memories. In short, a tulpa is like a sentient person living in your head. It takes time for a tulpa to develop a convincing and complex personality; as they grow older, your attention and their life experiences will shape them into a person with their own hopes, dreams and beliefs.
Isn’t this description interesting? Here’s the article from which I got this information –
Please read the whole article. As always I would be happy to hear your opinion on this topic in the comments section.
Searching the internet, I have found that most of the major have a wrong or misguided viewpoint of succubi. To counter that, I have made a wikia blog dedicated to succubi (link: here).
However, I don’t think that I will be able to do this new blog justice alone. So, I’m looking for people who are willing to post on this blog and help me spread the word. If anyone is up for the task then please comment.
It’s been three days since I performed the succubus summoning ritual and I have got three results –
Apparently, my ritual turned out to be a failure. While, I’m not going to reject the possibility that this ritual might have worked but in these three days I have found no evidence which would make me support my above statement. I don’t understand why my rituals are not working, I’m quite sure that I have the intent which these rituals require. Anyways, its back to the drawing board for me.
I have restored most of the posts from my previous blogs. If anybody is interested, then they can read them here.