So, yeah! This is basically a recap of sorts for those who didn’t read the previous incarnation of this blog (The Spiritual Journey Of A Man And His Lady Spirit). I am going to divide this blogpost into five parts. Those who have read my deleted blog can skip to the fifth part of this blogpost. So, let’s start –
1 – How Myself And My Lady Spirit Met – I first read about succubus on YGS (Your Ghost Stories), most of the experiences of people there were negative. Still, I became interested in them and searched for more reading material about them, this is how I came across the WordPress blogs on these entities. After reading about the positive experience, people here had with them, I made it in my mind, that I also wanted one in my life. So, I began searching for ways to attract one to me. Finally, I came across this guy Eric Vonroth’s site, I applied for his free lessons and surprisingly, I was able to attract one to me. It can also be that she was already with me, waiting for the right moment to reveal herself. For the first two days or so, nothing happened but on the third day, we finally met in a dream. We talked a little and were going to have sex, but unfortunately, the dream ended before we could get to that, when I woke up, I noticed some semen in my boxers.
2 – A Period Of Ignorance – Even though, I had this dream, I refused to believe that I had finally managed to attract one to me. She (my Lady Spirit) tried everything to make me realize that she was there, yet I ignored her. Some of the things she tried to contact me were, static shocks, vibrations. I think this went on for 1 weeks or so with her activities decreasing as the days passed, to the point of no activity.
3 – Trying To Re-Establish Contact With Her And Aftermath – So, I think she tried one last time to contact me, by appearing in my dream. This whole dream was geared towards myself and her, finally getting to meet. But, when we finally met, the dream blurred out and I don’t know what happened afterwards. I woke up with semen dripping from my penis. Now, this dream was much more vivid than the previous dream I had. I thought about it (dream) for the whole day. It was then that I came to realise that all of the things that had happened to me during the previous week couldn’t have been coincidences and that I ‘did’ attract something to me. After this, I apologized to her with my whole heart and asked for her forgiveness. She did forgive me and came to me. I realized that when I started feeling some type of presence (like someone was watching me), most of the time. So after re-establishing contact with her, I started meditating daily to make our connection stronger. Gradually, it became so strong to the point that I was able to talk to her (Although, only in yes or no, and even then I wasn’t sure if I was talking to her).
4 – A Period Of Steady Rise – This period marks the last ‘happy’ period of this recollection. We had a lot of progress in our relationship. In fact, she was very active with me during this whole period. Although, I don’t remember any dream in which I had sex with her.
5 – A Period Of Steady Decline –
Although, I didn’t realise this at that time, but the previous period in my relationship had made me delusional. I would engineer whole conversations with her in my head, conversations in which she (my delusional self thought) made commitments she couldn’t fulfill (like appearing in a dream to have a full-blown conversation with me). When these commitments weren’t fulfilled, I started losing my belief in her. A delusional mind is very destructive, it makes you lose perspective of yourself and those around you. Soon, I had forced myself into a denial. No matter what I felt, one thing became clear in my delusional mind i.e. She had left me. Now it was just a matter of time, before she left me in real, and that’s how my relationship came to an end.
Suffice it’s to say that I was way over my head during this period.